Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Have a new name...Hasini!

Hi there...I know it has been really long since I last posted something on this blog. Sorry guys!

There is something I am really excited about, something I can't wait to share with you! There is this girl who has been a good friend of mine for a while now. We have been chatting a lot over the last 1 week and I opened up to her. Yes, I told her I wore a sari. She said, "So sweet! Father and mother game?" To which I said, "no, I wanted to see how I looked in a sari. I also put on some jewellery!" She said, "Hmm, so you like to dress up like a girl?" Me: "Hmm, sometimes...it is rare, but I seem to somehow like it."

On another account, as a part of our converstation, she said, "Do you think you are Hasini? You are acting like it." Then she said "Haha, Hasini...nice name!" I really blushed at this, and said "Maybe! Yes, I like it!" Then on, she has been calling me Hasini! Even on sms & phone she refers to me with that name...it is really exciting and makes me very happy! This is the first time I have told a girl about my secret and she has taken it well!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Experience 12

As the days passed by, i became more and more of a
girl. i started actively helping mom both in and
outside home. i assisted her in shopping, doing work
at home. some times, when mom didnt feel like cooking,
i would cook that day. i had learnt a lot of domestic
activities. mom would tell people outside that i was
the daughter of her cousin. as a result, there was
simply noone who would treat ot think of me as a guy.
now i dressed up myself without mom's help, combed
hair on my own(all the basic plaits etc), applying
makeup etc. i used to apply hair-removal creams on my
face and avoided shaving. mom would ask me to use
haldi(turmeric) once a week on my face, hands and
legs. that not only prevented hair growth, but also
gave my skin a good glow. of course when mom asked if
i minded shaping my eye brows, i hesitated. she said
it was ok. basically because i was to get back to my
routine, so i tried to minimize any additional changes
in me. i already feared if anyone in my class would
coment looking at my skin and hair(the texture etc).
rahul would leave tomorrow. i would be all alone with
mom once again. i really felt bad and weak. i spent
the whole day with him. he said he would miss me a
lot. he told me he wished i was a real girl! i felt
shy. he gathered me with his hands and pullled me
close to him and hugged me. i felt as a girl whose
husband was leaving her and going away on a very long
tour. even mom was a bit dull with the thought of son
leaving tomorrow. that day evening, we went to Ganesh
temple and prayed for the good of all. a lady selling
flowers asked if we were a married couple. mom and
rahul said yes. she said we made a good couple. i was
wearing a green sari and mom asked me to put the pallu
over my head. she had given me a lot of bangles to
wear. it was really pleasnt outside. it was the first
time in 45 days that me, rahul and mom had goen out
together. we sat at the steps of the temple enjoying
the breeze. i removed the pallu over my head and put
it down. mom set right my hair which had become
loose at the back and again put back the rubberband.
all that had become quite common to me. after about
1/2 hour, we took an auto back home. that night i
cooked the food. mom wanted to spend the whole time
with her son. after dinner we again spent some time in
the open.
the next morning we got up early. rahul was leaving
tonight. even i felt the feeling of parting with my
man. the day went normal. rahul was busy packing his
luggage. i sat nearby watching him and assisted him.
rahul later kissed me and hugged me tightly. he mde my
hair lose and it fell over my face and he kissed me
again. he was very romantic. i think mom was not at
home. he reoved my sari. he played with my bare navel.
it gave a tinkling feling. i felt aroused and was
getting hot. my ears and face became red and hot.
rahul asked me why i was getting nervous. i had no
reply. then he left me. i reset my hair into ponytail
and wore back the sari. i sat silently. later mom
came.
the day went very fast. evening came and in about an
hour rahul was leaving. i sat silent and allowed mom
and rahul to converse. rahul called a taxi and we all
left for the station. at the station, rahul hugged me
and kissed me on my cheek. as rahul boarded the train,
mom took me near her and patted me on my head. that
was it. the train moved leaving both of us on the
platform. we came home and retired in our rooms.

Feedback plz................PREETI.

Experience 11

i was really caught up in a big mess of work and could not find any time to post
my remaining experiences. now i continue...
Last time i spoke of the forst night experience. now i speak of the remaining:
the next day was really dull and sleepy as we hardly slept the previous night. I
really thank mom who has developed me into a smart and confident girl in all
means. rahul told mom that i really behaved like a shy bride at first and then
like a married girl in the arms of her husband. mom smiled. i went to her and
touched her feet. she blessed me saying," may ur life be very smooth and
successful." i blushed at what she meant. mom told us that we should relax that
day and spend the evening somewhere outside. rahul reminded us there were only 5
days left for his travel. i felt a bit down as if i was getting parted from my
husband! after bath, i wore a red saree and mom made my hair into a single braid
and put flowers in it. i was a bit used to all these. she put gold ear rings to
my ears and gave me a good necklace to wear. i totally had forgotten the details
of my sex! i just believed i was a girl! i
attribute all this only to mom! with all the make up, i just looked better than
any indian bride!

in the evening, rahul suggested we go to a garden after dark as we had been once
before. i nodded. we slept in the afternoon and in the evening, mom asked both
of us to take bath. i took bath and put on a black bra and panties. my breasts
were just ok to fill the bra, so i didnt need any stuffing. i put on a blue
blouse and a petticoat. then i draped around me the shiny blue saree that mom
had given me before our "marriage". the blue saree would have looked great on
me. i just wanted to steal a glance at my personality in the mirror. with my
hair loose over my shoulder, i hurried into the bedroom. mom and rahul were
sitting there, speaking something. at once they looked at me and smiled. i didnt
expect them there! after i looked at myself in the mirror, mom called me near
her and asked me to get my comb and a stool. i obeyed. she asked me to give the
comb to rahul and put the stool in his front. i agreed. i sat on it and blushed.
it was a part of the activities that the newly-weds go
through!
rahul combed my slowly quite expertly, as if he had done it always! he simply
combed my hair from top to bottom for a long time and then started gripping my
hair at the head to form a ponytail. the feeling was great- gettig ur hair
combed by ur husband!
Girls, dont u think that even men can be very playful and submissive at times to
their wives? i really enjoyed. hope i had really married him. i allowed him to
do whatever he wished. he put my hair in different forms, asked mom each time
how it looked and looking a no from mom, changed the style. after many trials,
mom finally gave a yes! he held my hair high, fixed a clip with mom's help, left
it. my hair was fixed at the back of my head and was left to flow down as a high
pony tail. it really felt very different. i shook my head and the hair swinged
around! great! i got up and looked at myself in mirror. i was looking just
awesome in the saree and new exotic hairstyle(wonder whom rahull had seen with
my hairstyle before!). mom adjusted my jewellery and applied light makeup.
rahul came and stood beside me and mom said the same words she always said when
this happened-"u both make a very good looking couple". i would blush at this
and rahul would tighten his grip on me, taking me closer. mom suggested we
better leave early and come back early. i nodded. we had some juice and started
off on the bike. i sat sideways and held rahul at his stomach with my hand. mom
sent us off at the gate. i had always kept my hair weaved when going out on a
bike. this time, my hair was flowing, waving with the air. but it was very cool
outside. i really enjoyed the ride. we went to a general fair(exhibition) where
many things from variuos places are sold. the climate was very friendly and we
hardly had any sweat. we went from stall to stall loking at various things.
rahul offered to buy me a lot of things but i said no. finaly rahul insisted
that i buy something. so i decided to go for some bangles. we went into a
bangles store. i didnt want to speak out much with my half
girl voice. i spoke very littile. rahul asked for various types of bangles and
tried them onme. i said no for many. he commented iwas a typical girl, who
doesnt arrive at her final selection fast. i smiled. i finally agreed upon a
diamond studded bangle set(artificial diamonds). a set of four, two on each
hand. rahul slid them up my arms. i thanked rahul. he hugged me. later we moved
on looking at variuos stalls and i asked rahul to buy a t-shirt, that was hung
outside. i told him it would look great on him. the shopkeeper took a similar
one from inside and gave it to me. i toook it and put it at rahul's back to
check the size. it was good. he took it.
later we had some snacks and started back home. on the way back home, i sat at
the back as usual, but this time i rest my chin on rahul's shoulder. he put his
hand playfully on my head through my hair. i laughed. mom was waiting for us.
she saw my bangles and said they were just great and appreciated my choice. i
thanked her. later i went into my bedroom and put on a nightie and left the
hairstyle as it is. it was very comfortable too!
MORE TO COME!!! PLZ POST REPLIES - ANY THING - POSITIVE/NEGATIVE - about what u
feel about me. i would happy to accept and rectife my mistakes. i am a very
typical who likes to be in contact with a lots of other beautiful girls!
KEEP WRITING TO ME!
Preeti.

The Queen's Men

"All the Queen's Men" is a perfectly good idea for a comedy, but it just plain
doesn't work. It's dead in the water. I can imagine it working well in a
different time, with a different cast, in black and white instead of color--but
I can't imagine it working like this.
The movie tells the story of the "Poof Platoon," a group of four Allied soldiers
parachuted into Berlin in drag to infiltrate the all-woman factory where the
Enigma machine is being manufactured. This story is said to be based on fact. If
it is, I am amazed that such promising material would yield such pitiful
results. To impersonate a woman and a German at the same time would have been so
difficult and dangerous that it's amazing how the movie turns it into a goofy
lark.
The film stars Matt LeBlanc from "Friends," who is criminally miscast as Steven
O'Rourke, a U.S. officer famous for never quite completing heroic missions. He
is teamed with a drag artist named Tony (Eddie Izzard), an ancient major named
Archie (James Cosmo) and a scholar named Johnno (David Birkin). After brief
lessons in hair, makeup, undergarments and espionage, they're dropped into
Berlin during an air raid and try to make contact with a resistance leader.
This underground hero turns out to be the lovely and fragrant Romy (Nicolette
Krebitz), a librarian who for the convenience of the plot lives in a loft under
the roof of the library, so that (during one of many unbelievable scenes) the
spies are able to lift a skylight window in order to eavesdrop on an
interrogation.
The plot requires them to infiltrate the factory, steal an Enigma machine and
return to England with it. Anyone who has seen "Enigma," "U-571" or the various
TV documentaries about the Enigma machine will be aware that by the time of this
movie, the British already had possession of an Enigma machine, but to follow
that line of inquiry too far in this movie is not wise. The movie has an answer
to it, but it comes so late in the film that although it makes sense
technically, the damage has already been done.
The four misfit transvestites totter about Berlin looking like (very bad)
Andrews Sisters imitators, and O'Rourke falls in love with the librarian Romy.
How it becomes clear that he is not a woman is not nearly as interesting as how
anyone could possibly have thought he was a woman in the first place. He plays a
woman as if determined, in every scene, to signal to the audience that he's
absolutely straight and only kidding. His voice, with its uncanny similarity to
Sylvester Stallone's, doesn't help.
The action in the movie would be ludicrous anyway, but is even more peculiar in
a cross-dressing comedy. There's a long sequence in which Tony, the Izzard
character, does a marked-down Marlene Dietrich before a wildly enthusiastic
audience of Nazis. Surely they know he is, if not a spy, at least a drag queen?
I'm not so sure. I fear the movie makes it appear the Nazis think he is a sexy
woman, something that will come as surprise to anyone who is familiar with Eddie
Izzard, including Eddie Izzard.
Watching the movie, it occurred to me that Tony Curtis and Jack Lemmon were not
any more convincing as women in "Some Like It Hot." And yet we bought them in
that comedy, and it remains a classic. Why did they work, while the Queen's Men
manifestly do not? Apart from the inescapable difference in actual talent, could
it have anything to do with the use of color?
Black and white is better suited to many kinds of comedy, because it underlines
the dialogue and movement while diminishing the importance of fashions and
eliminating the emotional content of various colors. Billy Wilder fought for b&w
on "Some Like It Hot" because he thought his drag queens would never be accepted
by the audience in color, and he was right.
The casting is also a problem. Matt LeBlanc does not belong in this movie in any
role other than, possibly, that of a Nazi who believes Eddie Izzard is a woman.
He is all wrong for the lead, with no lightness, no humor, no sympathy for his
fellow spies and no comic timing. I can imagine this movie as a b&w British
comedy, circa 1960, with Peter Sellers, Kenneth Williams, et al., but at this
time, with this cast, this movie is hopeless.

hope i could get a role to play!...preeti

Experience 10

i owe mom and rahul a lot. for mom, who made me realize my feminine side, who
gave me all comforts and facilities of a girl, who gave me everything, including
my dresses, make up etc. for rahul, who taught me how a girl must behave with a
man, her husband. for mom, who taught me all the house hold activities, cooking,
sweeping, washing etc. who has made me a self sufficient and independent girl. i
cannot repay them with anythihg for what they have given me!

Preeti.

Experience 9

the night came!!!

that afternoon, we all slept; but i slept for a long time. mom had
tried waking me up from 5:30 onwards, but i got up only at 6:30. when
i got up, my hair was all wavy and it had come lose. i set my hair
behind my ears with both my hands. mom saw me and called me. when i
went to her, she made me sit beside her and undid my hair and roughly
made a ponytail. i was sitting, when she said, "Hey preeti! u have got
a lot to do! u have slept enough. u better get up and start getting
ready!"
i had for a moment forgotten the event that i was going to go through.
i realized she was right and hence stood up. she asked me take bath and
also wash my hair. when i went into my bedroom, she brought me a hair
conditioner shampoo and asked me to wash my hair well. i took it with
my soft hands. i went into the bathroom and took bath. when i opened
the bath door, i found mom and rahul sitting on the cot before me. they
both looked at me. i was still waiting when mom asked rahul to go out
of the room. he went out and mom closed the door. i went near her. she
told it was very late and said i should have got up well before. i
nodded.
she then asked me to remove the towel from my body. i stood in a black
bra and panty. she took a bright red blouse which had rich zaree and
slid it over my arms and fastened the hooks. she showed me a sari and
told me that it was her marriage sari! i said wow! i thanked her for
giving me such a gorgeous sari to wear. she said,"preeti, afterall all
the mother's saris ultimately go to her daughter! i love u my darling."
she then gave me a red petticoat to wear. after that, she opened the
sari. wow! i kept looking at it. it was so good. the best i ever saw!
and i was going to wear it! she helped me wear it very carefully. the
folds and everything just looked very elegant. now i stood beautifully
in a sari. she then took me to the dressing table, made me sit and
applied makeup all over my face. i was indeed the bride! after making
my face, she took a small lenght of some artificial hair and atttached
it to my hair which was in a half made braid. she then weaved some
strands together and again brushed the lenght of my hair. after a
minute, my braid was done! i waved my head so that the braid jumped and
fell over my right breast. i could see it in the mirror before me! it
was...sorry i have no words to say. ursula has rightly said...hair is
the symbol of feminity. mom then got a beautiful red rubberband and
fastened my hair at the bottom. this really elevated my beauty. she
then put on me some very elegant earrings, that were quite big. i shook
my head and they waved with me. i then wore some gold bangles. the
feeling was all together very great, awesome, ...just fail to explain
it well. i got up and had a fulll view at myself. i was a bride, very
innocent, very obedient, just waiting for hwer husband to come and kiss
her on her beautiful red cheeks.
mom simply hugged for a long time. later she went out of my room and
asked me to sit there. she got me some heavy snacks. i had them. she
asked me to sit there and not come out of the room. i obedienly nodded.
she then went out and i closed the door. i sat near the door and took
out my diary and continued writing the experiences. i could hear rahul
asking mom to open the door of my room and mom simply saying no. mom
said he could meet me only after ten pm. it was only getting nine. i
thought i could relax for sometime. at about 9:30, mom asked me to open
the door and she came in and closed the door. we then sat on the bed.
she let her hand move over my silky long hair. she examined my briad
and complemented my beauty. she told me that even she looked verymuch
like me at her marriage. i bent my head in shyness. she then told me
some things about the night that was before...what would be done, how i
must behave, what to do etc. then she realized it was getting ten. she
got up and went out. i heard from behind the door,"rahul, dont get too
aroused. be in ur limits and control urself. dont behave in an
uncivilized way. OK???" rahul said ok, very slowly.
it was ten and i heard a knock. mom asked me to open the door. now
rahul came in. as he did this, he continued standing, staring at me.
maybe he was scarce of words. finally he came to me and hugged me.
i didnt speak a word. it is said that girls are silent on the first
night and men try their best to make their bride interact with them. i
stood like a shy bride, taking everything that rahul gave me. then mom
came and asked rahul to take me to the main bedroom. he smiled. he took
my hand in his and took me to the main bedroom. it was quite well
decorated. the bed was filled with beautiful flowers and the room
scented greatly. mom was looking from outside and she made a sign to
rahul to close the door. he closed the door. i felt a bit nervous. i
stood beside the bed loking at him. he was standing at the door looking
at me and smiling. he then walked towards me and i moved backward. i
suddenly hit the bed and fell flat on it. he kept coming and climbed
over me! he applied little pressure to which i made slight sounds. he
then brought his face to mine and sais...preeti, my darling, i love u.i
took some time to reciprocate this. he then got up, asked me lay on the
bed properly. i occupied the right half of the bed. he then switched
off the lights, switched on the a small bedlamp. the light was very
slight but i could see everything in the room. i closed my eyes. after
a minute, i felt a hand entering my sari. i suddenly opened my eyes.
rahul lay beside me and he was taking his hand to my stomach. then he
slowly moved hhis hand to my bossom. i felt excited. mom had asked me
not to object it. he continued. he then slowly undid the hooks of my
blouse, and pulled its wings aside. i lay quitely. he then slowly asked
me to remove my blouse. i obeyed. then he removed my sari also. i lay
in bra and petticoat. he said he liked me with my hair set loose. so
got up and started unweaving my braid and removed the extra hair. my
hair reduced to less than half of its lenght. i used both my hands and
pulled my hair strands wide apart and dropped them each over my
shoulder. he was looking at me. i went back to my previous posture. he
now playfully meddled with my hair pulling it sometimes, throwing it
over my face and sometimes rubbing his face against my hair...the night
went on for a long time and i just dont know when i went to
sleep........ the best night in my life as a girl...how could i have
experienced it without the great mom and of course...rahul the great.
thanx sisters for having patiently read all my experiences and of
course i wuold have been the happiest girl if i got the expected
response. anyway, the above is just left with about 4-5 experiences
more. will mail them soon! waiting for ur comments, ur feelings about
me, etc.
love to all
Preeeti.

Experience 8

sorry sisters, i was out of station, so could not post my experiences.

this was indeed the best and greatest and the most unexpected thing...
last evening, we had been to a movie. today, we wanted to be at home and relax
ourselves. we slept in the afternoon. that evening, mom said both of us (rahul
and me) were going on very well with each other. she said she loved to look at
us both together. immediately, rahul snapped, "mom, i wanna marry preeti." i
laughed out and said dont be silly rahul. i said it would not be possible. i
toook it as a joke. mom said yes! i was a bit flabbergasted at that as i didnt
expect that word from her. she said to rahul that he could marry me day after
tomorrow. i asked mom if she was serious. she said "YES"!
that night, after rahul was out to a nearby shop, mom called me and asked if i
didnt want to experience a marriage. she said...obviously it cant be real, so if
i didnt mind, i could have the best experience of being a girl...and said it was
just for fun. i accepted as it would have been the only period in my life where
i could experience marraige and the married life of a girl. never ever could i
think of experiencing it again. i had to grab this oppurtunity.
that night, mom asked me sleep in a sari as a married girl normally does. but
she added that most of the girls now a days were after following the western
patterns and wore nighties, skirts etc even after marriage. she said i was more
suited as a traditional indian girl. i nodded. after i took bath that evening,
mom gave a ordinary satin sari and blouse to wear. after i wore the sari with
mom's help, she did my hair in a single braid and put on my forehead a red
circular bindi. i realized i looked like a girl to be married. internally i
thanked mom for all the pains she was taking to give me pleasure. i owe her a
lot. she then changed my earrings with simple rings that lookes like a flower.
also she gave me a gold necklace with a nice locket to wear. she gave me some
bangles to wear. i really felt full. at dinner, rahul said i looked a bit
different today, like more of an indian village girl now. he was right! mom
asked rahul to put the piece of roti he was holding into my mouth. i
looked at her and smiled. rahul put the roti in my mouth. mom turned to me and
said it was my chance now. i took a big piece of roti, put good amount of curry
and stuffed it in rahul's mouth. he laughed funnily. mom too laughed and said i
was a childish girl. i bent my head and smiled.
that night rahul asked mom if he could sleep with me. mom said no. she said,
"wait a day more dear, u will enjoy it!" i knew what she meant. anyway, he
kissed me on my cheek and went to bed. i blushed. we too went to bed. now a days
we were not getting up before 6:45. the next day, i got up at 7:00. after i
brushed my teeth and had coffee, mom asked me to move to my room. there, she had
kept a plate on the floor. i think it contained a mix of haldi and chandan and
it was for me! i was going to be the bride! she bolted the door. she made me sit
on a low stool and she sat beside on another stool. she asked me if i knew what
it was. i blushed and she patted on my head and said, "silly girl!" she then
asked me to remove everything. i removed the jewellery and the sari and again
sat. she asked me to remove everything once again. i again got up and looked at
her. she nodded at the petticoat and blouse. i removed them and then bra too. i
then sat with my breasts exposed; i sat only in a
panty. she made a bun of my hair. she then took the plate in her left hand and
started applying the paste all over my face first, then hands, chest and then
legs. while she applied the cream over my breasts, she squeezed them repeatedly
and said they had gained excellent shape. when she took the flesh and released,
they tingled. i felt sexually aroused. after completing the process, she got up,
opened the door and asked me to close it again. from outside, she shouted, "take
bath after about 2 hrs." i said OK.
i now had to spend 2 hrs naked! after 5 mins., i got a brilliant idea of putting
down all my till date experiences on paper. i opened a dairy and started writing
all the things that happened in the holidays. after writing for a long time, i
realized 2 hrs had crossed. so i put the diary under my pillow and went to
bathroom. i first washed my body and then undid the hair and washed it with a
shampoo. i felt my hair softer and brighter after i came out of the bath. i had
a glance at myself in the mirror. my skin was smoother and had attained a slight
glow. i wore a churidar, did my hair into a ponytail and went into the drawing
room. mom looked at me, got up at once and took me in again. she said i was
supposed to be wearing a sari. so i changed into a pink sari which had flower
embroidery all over. she did a braid for me and put some makeup.
then i went to the sitting room where rahul was sitting. mom came and asked
rahul not to speak much. he smiled and nodded. mom made me sit opposite him in a
chair and bent my head. rahul was looking at me. i tried lloking at him from the
corner of my eyes. he was smiling. i again bent my head. he asked me a few
questions about my studies, etc. i answered everything, but like a shy bride.
mom came after about half an hour and asked us to come for lunch. at lunch,
yesterday night's event was repeated. we put food in each other's mouths. it was
really fun. i wondered how meticulously mom had arranged all these activities.
mom instructed us both to take rest in the afternoon for a better experience in
the night. he went to mom's bedroom and me to mine...
more to come. keep sending replies. it encourages me a lot! plz send feedback on
what u think of my behavior, etc. thank you
Preeti.